Saturday, February 24, 2007

Saturday Night in the Snow

It's so weird to have a blog. For one thing I never get to write in it. For another when I look back and read what I just read I want to delete everything...it sounds so pompous and high handed, so forgive me, I really must try harder...

So I am still slogging through Howard Zinn's People's History, one friend told me about a sort of 'highlights' of Zinn book that really might be easier. The thing is this really is a very good book but I gotta take it in small pieces because it really is a record of one small group of assholes oppressing a large group of less well armed/informed/organized group of others...kind of depressing.

I read this book and I really start to think that ever since there was like 2 people and 1 spoon someone had to hit someone else over the head with a rock to get the spoon.

Oh and then I read about the Crusades, wow, pretty much blasted any shred of Christianity I was hanging onto for old times sake, right straight out of me...talk about people being really mean to each other.

Ok so let's all agree to not be mean to each other.

I had lunch with a friend this week, and then drinks with a whole different group of friends and all of a sudden I was like damn, my heart is a clenched fist, look at these people with their sense of openess and expansiveness and me being all tight and holding close and passing judgement...it was an eyeopener and kind of a drag too.

So Bless you all, get some rest and please let's just simply be kind.

elena

2 comments:

Vanessa said...

How come nobody responds to your blog? It is really interesting. I feel like I am dealing with some of the same issues, about self-protection through violence. My particular overwhelming notion right now is about the insidious perpetuation of a money-dominated, fear-based, androcentric, society where we trust the wrong things and don't trust ourselves. It's crazy because even when you are thinking about it all and you want to change things, you are only able to see through the very same cultural lens that you are trying to change. And so I don't even know how to trust myself; I'm working on trying to figure out how to have hope, or whether it's about choosing hope no matter what. I have pretty vague ideas about the hope in love and pacifism and increasing (self)awareness, but I have a hard time figuring out what those things actually look like in the real world. Whew. Sorry, you just got an earful, or maybe an entry-ful.

I think connecting is good, even if it is only for the sake of not being caught in ones own head (though I am pretty sure it is good for more than that). I am glad to hear about what's going on in your head, though I am not entirely sure if it is good that we are thinking in similar veins.

Damn, can you tell I am in a second-guessing faze right now?

Anyway, it was nice to see you the other day, and more in the context of your close little world. I love your kids.

Peace (despite and because of everything)

elena said...

Vanessa you rock! It is definitely about sustaining and nurturing hope. And yes, if I might venture that is about choosing hope no matter what, which is hard especially if you are looking for the truth..but in some ways that is exactly where hope lives, in the truth.

At any rate Thank you! Thank you so much for checking in and adding your thoughts...I also think it's about building community, you are not alone and the fact that we are thinking about the same things at the same time is indicative of the realness of our "struggle" right now. And yes our "money-dominated, media centric" life right now really is about perpetuating fear and doubt, that's how they control us and that's how they make money. Divide and conquer and these days it occurs on a really personal level - on the one hand we have the American dream which is a version of the Cinderella story but we go out in the world and find a much much different reality.And sometimes the price of "success" is this country is too high..and what is "success" anyway?